Wow! Yesterday, the 11th, was my two year anniversary as a member of this site! Where the hell does the time go?
This entire past year seemed to be just one huge obstacle after another, each even bigger than the one prior. Everything from my "health" woes to personal. And shit, the health problems were non-friggin-stop, and seem to be continuing.

And, speaking of my health:
Another year went by with not one of my Family members so much as calling. FYI- I was disowned, for the most part, due to my RSD (Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy), worsening to the point where I am now "homebound". Three older brothers, one younger sister and my so-called father, not a word.
Everyone just automatically assumes it's due to my "lifestyle", and I actually wish it were. But, my orientation was welcomed, BIG time, by all of them, since I was 18.

It's NOT all so depressing though, I still do have David*! On August 7th, we'll celebrate 13 Years together! And, we just bought a brand new Grand Jeep Cherokee Loredo, midnight blue, and loaded! I Love it! Not that I get to drive it often, but I will find a way, that I'd bet on...

Well, rambling here to myself is getting tiresome, but therapeutic.. I really think I just needed to vent a little. If anyone happens to read this, please feel free to comment or ask me ANY questions you might have? I'm an open book, VERY!
Cheers!
JoeyLee*

p.s. was too lazy to spell check, sorry!

December 27th. 2006

Almost 2007.....

What a year, and so god damned fast! So much happened, yet all seems like it had to have been spread out over a lifetime.

I thought a lot about my "former" Family, mostly on Christmas Eve. I even called once, around midnight, but hung up.

At 40 yrs. old; and way too close to 41, am I too old to still year for the love of my Family? My Mother died back in 91. She's the one and only person I was able to count on. And, I was the one person she knew was always there, she knew I understood without her ever uttering a word.

My prick of a father never layed a hand on her, but sometimes I think his words to her were worse. He saved the physical abuse for me. I just kept my mouth shut until he was done, then I'd end up in/on my bed, not knowing how or when I ended up there.

I started this off writing about the past year, and ended up going back some 30+ years ago.
I guess I'll have to rethink the past year...
Merry Christmas to All*,
Best Wishes for a Healthy, Happyy 2007!!!!

Joey Lee*

"I'd rather be what I am than be beloved for what I am not"
- Andrew Gide